A few days ago I tweeted the question, “Do you ever feel like you just have to do something even though you’re uncertain about the outcome?” I didn’t get any particular answers from anyone, but since it was retweeted several times I figured at least a few other folks were feeling just like me.
Not only am I quite certain that I have to do something even if no one (aka my husband) understands why, but I also must have a definite way that “something” happens or at least begins.
I think my reasons explain why I can’t walk on my treadmill lately. I simply must go for a walk outdoors. Never mind that the temperature is over 100 degrees. I just can’t walk in-place. I must feel like I’m going somewhere — anywhere. There must be a destination, direction, movement, and progression. A view other than walls!
And this, too, is why I am going to do something very soon because I must. I don’t know what the outcome will be, but it feels like I’m going in the right direction that will take me where I want to go. And since I’m open to any destination other than staying where I am, it’s all good!
Is it a little scary for me to get out of my comfort zone? You betcha! Would it be easier to stay home? Perhaps! Well…I’m not so sure about that! Staying put isn’t as easy as it used to be which is why there is something impelling me forward – onward.
Now folks who know me well, don’t need to worry. I’m really not speaking of anything that dramatic. It is about me continuing to grow, learning new skills, having goals and striving to reach them, making new friends, and living a happier, healthier, more balanced life. It’s about passion and purpose and figuring out what I want to do with myself the rest of my life.
It’s just sometimes, there are some things that require me wearing my big girl panties and doing without my husband by my side. Like the eWomen Network conference I AM GOING TO ATTEND!!
Great ideas, words we can all live by!! I too know what it feels like to be on the treadmill for too long and feel the need deep inside to increase forward momentum. This means different things for different people depending on the time in their lives. I made an enormous life change in almost every aspect of my existence, but I have never been happier or more sure of my direction. Thus, when you feel that inner urging you have to trust it and know that the ultimate outcome will be blessed and full of new experiences and wonder.
I am very happy to see your continued journey down the road of personal growth and reflection and cannot wait to hear how the fabulous ewomen network conference turns out!!!
I try to wear my big-girl-panties too.Actually? at 46 years old it all comes quite easily and with no thought. I think the only person thinking so much of it is my husband (chuckles..)